Chapter 5 - That Of Past And Endless Torture
After getting out of the subway station, I traverse the area and look thoroughly. It took me two hours, but I’d finally gotten to the location. I probably could have found it faster, but I was too afraid to ask the people around me for help. They look scary.
The bells hanging off the door chimed as I entered, startling me at first, but eventually giving me a momentary calmness. I take a few glances around. The doors were old, their rusted metal hinges having a dull glow from the sunlight. The windows were scratched and dirty, allowing some light to enter the area. However, most of the area was filled with darkness, like a night without the moon or stars.
Then I took a glance at the tables and seats covered with dust, and the true nature of this place finally clicked.
I felt uncomfortable towards, no, almost scared towards this place. Because this place is not invisible, nor is it nonexistent. This place is a husk, the forgotten shell of something greater, left behind to age and rot. A fate worse than death stood before me, and I was petrified. Once again, I could not move. Once again, my right hand curled. But then I noticed that through the darkness, there was a familiar intensity.
“It took you long enough.”
The veil surrounding me cracked, and after it broke apart the only thing left was that person. Exactly what you’d expect from entering the domain of a beast. Her intensity breaks through any mood, like streaks of light piercing the darkness.
“Hey, are you going to say anything? Or am I just gonna be talking to myself?”
I snapped back to my senses immediately and fumbled around for a proper response.
“Oh hello, umm h-how are you this g-good evening?” I said, straightening my posture.
I looked and saw her standing in front of a door that I think leads to the kitchen, her gold hair gleaming brightly even in this shabby, leftover husk.
“I really thought you would find this place a bit earlier, being a kid genius and all. I guess you’re not so smart after all?”
She moved in my direction slowly taking steps while keeping both her arms behind her back. I took notice of this strange posture and became cautious.
“So, why did you call me to this abandoned place? What kind of relationship do you even have to this place? Was it your favorite restaurant or something?"
She finally reached me when I finished asking, and she took a few steps so we were side to side.
“I live here, X. This is my reality.”
I slowly turned to look at her, and she was already ready to meet my gaze. We just kept eye contact for a minute or two, the considerate silence leaving me to my thoughts.
This girl, the one who has a familiar calm intensity, the one who creates light in every darkness. That girl, lives here?
I couldn’t believe it. No, I wanted to believe it but believing such a thing would be like believing in a fairy tale. I can’t believe it. It must be a lie right?
No, no. It isn’t a lie. This girl was not lying just now, she was completely honest. No matter how much I try to deny it in my mind, the truth was right in front of me.
There were so many questions to ask, but there was really only one thing I could say.
She shook slightly and then glanced back quickly in both directions before inching a bit closer, whispering something in my ear.
“That was pretty loud X, it startled me a bit.”
I came back to my senses and immediately removed eye contact, looking down.
“S-sorry, I wasn’t thinking right,” I continued meekly, “Still, I don’t understand how you can live in this place. How someone like you manages to live here every day. I can’t even imagine what that must be like.”
I hear two footsteps, and see her bright purple sandals firmly planted in the ground.
“Well, it’s true I don’t like this place that much anymore,” she continued with that familiar voice, “Hey hey, wouldn’t it be fun to go somewhere?”
“Where?” I said with curiosity, still facing the floor.
“I don’t really know, you should choose. You probably go out more than me.”
What the hell? Me? Decide a place to go? I haven’t even gone out somewhere for fun since…
There was a silence, and for two minutes, there was no sound except for tears hitting the old, dusty floor.
“I’ll be right back,” she said, walking towards the exit.
The steps of her purple sandals could be heard from across the room. She’s probably leaving. That’s always how it is. They’re always walking away. I already know, I already know too well. The painful reality that always awaits me no matter where I run or hide. Yes, this is-
I never even heard her coming back. It was like magic. Before I knew it, I saw those bright purple sandals once more.
“I got you some tissues, X. I guess this old place does have some use after all.”
I never even thought about such a scenario happening.
“I think I know somewhere we can go.”
After she said that I slowly looked up.
“You have to keep it a secret though, okay?”
And that girl was still there.